Sin Tu Amor (Without Your Love)

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 Sin Tu Amor  (Without Your Love)

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Sin tu amor
Your tattooed memories remain
Flickering inside my blazing heart
Along with the poetry you engraved

Sin tu amor
Slow lava tears scorch my ducts
As your words drip down my cheeks
Since you are not here with me

Sin tu amor
Smoldering emotions consume me
With a fire that will never douse
For our love will burn eternally

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Yes, unfortunately, it is over.  I am eternally grateful for my time with N.  She is a remarkable, talented, loving woman.  And I dare say, for a brief time, I was loved in a way no man has ever been loved.

 

316 thoughts on “Sin Tu Amor (Without Your Love)

      1. Sin Tu Amour!! I have tattooed on my arm of heart-the name of Mom and a Beautiful Rose.hey dew!!how much you are emotional.i regard your all feelings.

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    1. Malcolm, thank you so much for your kind words. I am still in a bit of shock myself. And poor Nandita is devastated as well. We are both hurting. Thank you for all of your support. I think it is still safe for me to say, we both appreciate it.

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      1. No, not a question, more of a thought ….. I want to comfort but not intrude. I want to help, but don’t know how.

        I’ve been ‘here’ before and want to counsel but know it won’t be helpful right now …

        The caretaker in me is perplexed and you are too busy with your own feelings to be asked to think on these.

        I guess this mess of a comment means I’d like to help because something about ‘you’ makes me want to, but I don’t want to intrude or overstep.

        Sorry, I’m sure I’m just rambling …. tortured artist was the first thought I had reading this. It seemed shallow. :/

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        1. You made me smile through my tears. So, that in itself was a good first step. Thank you for that. Nandita and I continued to run into brick walls with things we needed to accomplish to finally be together. We are both deeply in love and pained by this separation. Now, we must begin a period of healing. Did this help?

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          1. Did it help? Yes and no! lol

            Your kind nature shines through when you are worried about helping me in your own time of need and healing!

            I’m glad it made you smile, I hope that means that you will remember ‘there is life out there’! (Reba) I hope you both find peace, no matter where that journey takes you. 🙂

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            1. LOL The funny thing about life is most people concentrate on the destination, the wonderful part of life is the journey. That is where you make memories. Yes, I am hurt right now, but I am wise enough to know, that though it is raining on me at this moment, the sun is always shining, I never lose that perspective.
              Thanks for the support – Drew

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    1. You are very kind. This is a shock for me as well. I really felt we w were meant to be, but sometimes life works against you. I will miss her. There will be a big void without her. Thank you for reading and expressing your true reaction. It is a tragic shock for me as well.

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  1. What a roller coaster ride!
    For whatever it is worth, a few lines to both of you from my heart.

    “Heart weeps silently
    For both of you
    If there is a tomorrow
    Where parallel line meets
    In an alternate universe
    Love that merged
    And diverse
    Somewhere beyond the rainbows
    Surely will converge”

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  2. Drew. Oh no. I’m really sorry to read this and to know your heart is hurting. Please take good gentle care of yourself while you work through this. Your poem is beautiful. *gentle hugs* ♥. Niki

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        1. If only it was as easy as taking your healing words and rubbing it against my chest, You are so sweet. Thanks. It will not be easy to heal from this loss. Nandita was an incredible woman. It may have been short lived, but our love was intense. I will try to heal through my writing. Thank you for your words and concern. They are needed and appreciated.

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          1. {{{{{Drew}}}} Nandita touched my heart for a short time, and hearing she is gone from blogging for a few months was hard to hear. She’s a brilliant, joyful presence. To be loved by her so deeply as she so obviously loved you would make the pain something so much greater at the parting. These grande passions change us forever. As you already know, despite this pain, this is a love you’ll never regret. You would do it again, even knowing the cost. I continue to send healing across the web of life – and it will reach you. ♥.

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            1. So loved your comforting words and especially your wisdom in these lines – “As you already know, despite this pain, this is a love you’ll never regret. You would do it again, even knowing the cost.” Too beautiful!!!!

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              1. Thank you for your kind note! These words were gifted to me a very long time ago by a beloved aunt, now transitioned. I never forgot them, and I needed them more than once over the years. I’m grateful these words connected with your heart. ♥.

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    1. You are very kind. I wasn’t ready for this. I guess it wasn’t meant to be. Nandita is a wonderful, loving woman. Afraid I will never meet another like her. Thank you for your kind words and wishes. Isha, they are appreciated.

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      1. No body has seen tomorrow, Drew. The universe works in unexpected ways… Yet, although every hopeful, romantic heart died a little death upon this news, I am sure greater things are yet to be born, for both you and Nandita. May God speed up the healing process. Sending positive vibes to both of you!
        I’ll share a Shelley quote that got me through some turbulent times –
        “If Winter comes, can Spring be far behind?”

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        1. That is such a beautiful quote. I will have to remember that. Thank you for all of your wonderful words. I hope you are right. Perhaps greater thing are awaiting Nandita and myself. THank you for your kindness and support. It is appreciated.

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  3. Oh no – I was barely on the computer yesterday, so started with your entry from yesterday. Then read this one and had to read all the comments to believe it was true. Andrew, I am stunned and so very sorry. Your world turned on its head. I wish both of you peace and healing. I am so sorry – no other words.

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    1. So, you went from the happiness of the recital to this poem. “world turned over on its head” Yeah, totally unexpected. I am still totally entangled with my law suit and she has her own entanglements as well. We kept running into one brick wall after another. Yes, we begin a time of healing. Thank you for your warm wishes, we both appreciate it.

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          1. Get these words coming Andrew. I am listening. I too use words in poetry to release the pain, though it may be a while before you can formulate them in your head.

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    1. We were dreaming of a happily ever after as well. I had was hoping to go to India in November. But it wasn’t meant to be. Thank you for your kind words. Healing will be a process, since I know I will never find another woman like her. She was amazing. Thank you

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  4. I didn’t respond to this for a while after you posted, because I was hoping it wasn’t true.
    I think very highly of both of you as writers, but more importantly as human beings.
    My prayers are with both of you in finding happiness in whatever form that takes going forward.
    Peace be with you.

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  5. Sin Tu Amor Your Love is true please don’t disappear Love is the only way.
    Lead the way.Through the secret beauty of the madness smilling all the sadness these Hope, Patience ,happiness ,Peace and answers of eternal love. Please don’t give up.

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    1. In my conversation with beautiful Nandita, she suggested she was taking a much needed break from blogging. I guess, that is how she must heal. Since childhood, writing has been my therapy. So, you guys are stuck with me. And I still believe in love. So your stuck with more love poems, too. Thank you for your kind words and support. They are greatly appreciated.

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    1. A bit unexpected, huh? A teeny weeny bit of an understatement. Yes, we must heal. Life does go on. Thank you for your supportive words. Hopefully, tomorrow brings Nandita everything she dreams of. Thanks you.

      On a different note. I tried commenting on two of your recent posts, and comments were closed. A little anti-social are we?

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      1. I closed comments until September… I need a break to rest, it is a summer after all. Swedish one = very short. Have to enjoy to the fullest.
        Who knows. We’ll see in September- October. Maybe she and you get back together .. In any case – look only ahead ✌️😉🕺🕺

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        1. That is actually a good idea about closing comments. I often find myself burning out. I may have to think about it at some point.

          A reunion. I don’t think she would be interested. Even when things were happy and smooth, the distance was tough on us. Thank you for your words. As you say, I am looking ahead….

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          1. yeah, I think its ok to do that for a short time. I know the blogger – she closes the comments on her different posts (before posting) time to time, twice a week or so, when she’s too busy to communicate…
            ✌️oki, ahead sounds good anyway.. take care

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    1. I know Walt. From the beginning, Nandita knew the odds were against us. I have legalities on my side to unravel she has things on her side to untangle. Every time we thought we were making progress, we would run into another brick wall. I am a fighter, but she is a sensitive soul, and well, it’s over now. We will heal. It won’t be easy for me, because frankly, I won’t find another woman like her. Thank you for your lovely words Walt. They are appreciated.

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  6. Andrew, my heart broke when I read this poem. I can’t believe it. My heart just won’t believe it. You two have been my favourite and will always be. I still hope you guys can work out some sort of solution. I am in shock and denial I think. Sending lots of peace

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    1. Not even sure how to respond. My heart is broken as well. I was willing to fight for love, but I guess it just wasn’t meant to be. Now, Nandita and I will have to heal. Thank you for all of your kind words and support. We both appreciate it.

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    1. Oh, my friend, I am still in a state of shock myself. I need to wake up from this nightmare myself, the alarm clock refuses to ring. I agree, this just isn’t right. But it is out of my hands. Trust me, I would cross land and sea, fight everything in my path, to get her back. Thanks for your support. (Hey, this was in my Spam).

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      1. Yes, I am in disbelief Drew and I feel this is just the rainy weather in the stages of love. Any minute the umbrella will cover you I hope, I pray and it will be her holding it. It may be out of your hands but please don’t give up hope or don’t stop fighting, you two are what “Poetry in Motion” is. I’m here for both of you.
        (Yes, my comments go straight to people’s spam folder. I contacted askimet, some people aren’t having the issue.)

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        1. Oh, Roy. I wish this is just another storm Nandita and I must weather. I always cling to the umbrella of hope. And there is always room for her under here, Not sure if Nandita recycles her garbage. HEY, THAT WAS A BAD JOKE. I could already see you & HER coming down hard on me for that bad joke. Lord, she will be pissed when she reads this. Anyhow, I promise you I cling to hope and this time; I am choking the shit out of it. I never do this, but I will quote a line from my last manuscript (sci-fi love story) “HOPE IS ALL I HAVE.” Thank you so much for your words and support. I am so lost without her. God, I wish the words would come to me to write a poem about a rudderless ship lost in a storm. That is me right now. Honestly, can’t stop the tears. Thank you.

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          1. No eres basura 😑!!
            Every storm can be weathered, must be and you cling to that umbrella till your hands bleed. I still don’t know what to say, I feel like crying myself. You two had beautiful back and forth poetry together but not only that, you have love and magic so that’s not something that just gives up. You choke hope and leave it breathless like she left us with her poetry. Hope is a powerful thing and it floats, flys and among other things it works. I’m praying I’m just dreaming, you’re a great guy and Nandita is a beautiful soul and NanDrewdita is a wonderful thing. Don’t give up, the heart will figure out the right words and for now just know that the heart doesn’t give up on something special. It’s okay to let the tears flow, but it can’t rain forever, Nandita is a rainbow and when the rain stops, it’ll hopefully appear. I can’t keep saying sorry because that represents no hope, I’ll say I feel for you, but things will get better. Like I said, I support you both and always will, she wants me to do that.

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            1. You said so many beautiful and encouraging things. Thank you. Let me tell you this. If I had the choice of sharing my life with a beautiful woman in my bed or being with my beautiful Nandita without ever having the possibility of meeting her. I would still choose Nandita every time.

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              1. I know you would and I can sense that, and that’s why I feel there will be a rainbow after the storm. Because you planned on meeting and something this wonderful doesn’t get held back by “it’s not meant to be’s”. This was meant to happen, you two are WordPress wonders!! Jason Mraz, “ I won’t give up” that’s the song. What you just said proves to me that you are dedicated and I hesitate to think she isn’t. She’s probably writing about you right now, just not posting it. I refuse to believe this is happening, I’m sorry for being stubborn. I know things happen, but so does good things. Choose her.

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                  1. You keep believing because I do. What you guys “have” is special and it is that once in a lifetime feeling. Pain is temporary my friend. Take solace in writing, it eases things, for me at least.

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          2. Keep the hopes on, that is the best way. I am sure she recycled her garbage. May be stinky as hell for a while but all for good in the end. Bad or good so long a joke makes you smile, keep smiling.

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  7. Sin Tu Amor Your Love is true please don’t disappear Love is the only way. Lead the way.Through the secret beauty of the madness smilling all the sadness these Hope, Patience ,happiness ,Peace and answers of eternal love. Please don’t give up. I wanna be free from this pain. You know your love is true. No more stories lies no time to feel I opened up my eyes. I am I am I have my faith and now i finally found my way to you. Please don’t let my hand go 9 I will be lost without you.
    N.P Dlamini

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  8. You must be Nut My Love if you think I would let such beauty and Joy evacuate my heart no ways. I made a promise before God that never in my wildest dream will I do anything to intentionally hurt you. My Vocabe has changed dramatically.

    N.P Dlamini

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  9. O dear! …. a bit wordless here….
    Sending warmth, healing vibes and best wishes for both your futures.
    I feel it will only make your creative energy more intense, and I look forward to more wonderful poetry. -Resa

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  10. My goodness, I read this while I was at work on hardly any sleep so I thought I read it wrong. This just can not be true. The love y’all shared was so beautiful and I just have no words to say how sad this makes me. I am so sorry Andrew. I can not imagine how hard this is for you, but take time to heal. I do believe everything happens for a reason and maybe something will work out for the best. Stay strong and please take care of yourself!

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  11. Trying to imagine how you feel. My friend was once in a similar state but the name is blinking out and in in my memory. Something to do with space.

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        1. Very sorry that you have felt this pain. No one should ever have to endure pain and/or loneliness. That is one of the good things about blogging. We get to connect with other people. My deepest good wishes and prayers go out to you. Thank you so much my dear friend.

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  12. Kind of speechless. Much poetic beauty has come from the both of you and I felt so much pain from this poem. Emotions and feelings have always been quite the muses. I hope you both find happiness.

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    1. It is a time for healing for both of us. You know me already. I was fighting for love until the bitter end. Nandita is a sensitive soul who couldn’t fight the currents that were against us. Our love was real. Thank you for your wonderful support, kind words, and prayers.

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