Thank you for all of the beautiful messages of concern. They warm my battered heart. I will be responding to every single one of them.

After weeks of life threatening blood pressure levels, we finally have it down to near normal levels. Now, we begin the process of repairing my heart.

When I first returned to Florida, I purchased a ticket to a New Years Eve Masquerade ball. Tonight, I will sit at the bar DRINKING WATER, watching OTHERS DANCE, as I welcome in the New Year in a room of masked strangers.


chilly winds of melancholy
blew memories through my window
inducing a crescendo of shivers
waltzing on my flesh
haunting players of unrequited love
perform in this lonely masquerade
a sadistic, nightmare revue
as my mirror reflects
a face cloaked in smiles and laughs
failing to mask the pain
of another year without you

Happy and healthy 2020.


289 thoughts on “masquerade

  1. Hey my friend dew!! I have commented just now on you to day post”this love..”but my comments are disappeared.why my ,my dear!!if you want to reply then give reply but you should not feel any problem.bless you ,my special dew!!⚘⚘⚘⚘ xoxo.


  2. Beautiful and heartbreaking, my Lonely Author
    I can’t imagine what you were going through when you wrote this heartbeat of painful love. And yet, you still wrote. Sigh

    I adore it, every carefully penned word
    I hadn’t been able to comment before.
    Having read every single word you’ve written here on WP lol, I felt duty bound to place my touch here, too. Impossible not to
    All my love,



    1. Fiery
      this one was different from all the rest. It was totally written in my head. Not on paper or the computer.

      Thank you for yur kind words and for taking the time out to go to an older post to read.
      You always make me fel blessed.

      Lonely Author

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  3. Wow. You really do have a way with words. I am not loved. Even though sometimes I still have a remote sense that deep in his heart he still cares he shows me by every way conceivable that what we had is lost and thrown out like something of disgust. If it’s not the other women that he ignores me with it’s the lies he tells me about myself…it’s the sarcasm. And I’m convinced that he was only put in my life to hurt me.


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