
Thank you for all of the beautiful messages of concern. They warm my battered heart. I will be responding to every single one of them.
After weeks of life threatening blood pressure levels, we finally have it down to near normal levels. Now, we begin the process of repairing my heart.
When I first returned to Florida, I purchased a ticket to a New Years Eve Masquerade ball. Tonight, I will sit at the bar DRINKING WATER, watching OTHERS DANCE, as I welcome in the New Year in a room of masked strangers.
masquerade
chilly winds of melancholy
blew memories through my window
inducing a crescendo of shivers
waltzing on my flesh
haunting players of unrequited love
perform in this lonely masquerade
a sadistic, nightmare revue
as my mirror reflects
a face cloaked in smiles and laughs
failing to mask the pain
of another year without you
Happy and healthy 2020.
My dear!!where is my comment?
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But don’t worry about my comment.not special in that.wish you a happy and smiling new year and feel better than beforeπ·
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Lonely, this is a very haunting poem.
It is very excellent, yet, haunts.
It makes me think that life itself is a masquerade. After all, we don’t really know anything.
Your health update seems more positive than the last post. Your heart is broken. It will get fixed. You will dance and have another drink! Happy New Year & Happy New Decade!
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{{{{HUGS}}}
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Happy you liked this poem Beautiful.
So touched by your words and support.
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Reblogged this on The Reluctant Poet.
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Chuck thank you always my friend.
You are so appreciated.
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Glad your blood pressure is improving, and hope the same will soon be true for your heart. The poem is lovely; I can feel the winds blowing around me as I read. May the new year bring you happiness and health as well.
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AH, David
Thank you for your lovely message and concern.
It feels good to know people are concerned.
Thank you.
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Oh, this poem just breaks my heart… I can feel the pain in it. She is out there and waiting for you. GLAD to hear your blood pressure is better. I wish you a happy, healthy, loving new year! β€ β€ β€
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Smiling through tears.
Thank you for this beautiful message
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I didn’t mean to make you cry. You are so welcome Drew!
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The poem is beautiful as usual but it dug its claw so deep inside my emotion, couple with information of your situation … My heart feels as if it’s being squeezed right now π
I hope all your dreams come true this year, but more than anything I wish you health and strength to fight every trials. Stay strong Drew! Happy new year… π
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Oh, Sweetie. Your words make me so happy.
They fill my heart with hope and warmth.
Thank you
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Happy new year dear π
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Happy 2020 Pia.
I hope the new year brings you a flood of happiness
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Happy new year Drew πππ
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My dear friend. How are you?
Missed you.
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Glad to see you back, Andrew.
Hope you are well. Wonderful writeup.
Happy New year!
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Trying to come back.
Thank you for your lovely message.
I hope you and yours have a special 2020
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Well shoot…I was just home with my kids eating hotdogs and watching Netflix π€¦πΏββοΈ
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I hope I didn’t ruin the moment.
I wish you the very best in 2020
Thanks for the message
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You didnt π… Thank you you too
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Well, illness certainly hasn’t impacted your ability to write stunningly beautiful poetry! All the best in 2020, dear Drew:-)
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You are much too kind.
Thank you for this message and all of your wonderful comments.
I will always be grateful.
I hope 2020 is being good to you and yours.
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Yay! Happiest 2020 wishes my friendβ₯οΈ
Youβve been in my prayers – Iβm so happy to hear youβre improvingπ
One moment at a time..
Love your words as always – they are so full of life and intrigue π
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Smiling through tears.
You always make me feel blessed.
πΉ
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You are blessed my friend β₯οΈ
never quit believing that
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I won’tπΉ
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Happy New year to you, my dear friend. May 2020 bring you good health, peace, joy and love in abundance.
Take care of yourself. Hugs X
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Bless you for this lovely message.
It means a lot.
Thank you.
Happy 2020
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I wish you a heart-healthy year, Drew. Sorry to read there were complications, but I am glad to read you addressed them right away and are on the mend!
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Shelley, I hope 2020 is begin good to you.
Bless you for this message.
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Dear Drew, happy new year my dear friend, itβs so good to hear from you. Iβve missed you, your warmth and the words that always touch my heart. I pray that youβll heal well and that 2020 brings you love, good health and all the joy and peace you deserve. As for your poem, itβs beautiful and quite poignant. We all wear our masks donβt we?
Sending you much love from me here down under. xx β€οΈ
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Oh, I am going to tackle all of these mesaage Miriam.
Thank you for everything. I wish you could see my tears.
I am so grateful for everything.
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I feel your tears my friend, from afar, I feel it all too, the love and the gratitude. β€οΈ
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tyπΉβ€οΈ
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Drew wishing you a very happy new year. Hoping you get kicking fit very soon. Stay blessed buddy.
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I hope your 2020 is filled with happiness.
Thank you for your lovely message. I am touched.
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Thanks a lot Drew π
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Andrew, I’m just one of many but add my voice to chorus of gladness that you are recovering.
Be well (and stay well.)
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Bless you.
I hope your 2020 is filled with happiness.
Thank you for your lovely message.
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A new year wish full of days full of joy with happiness for you,
and many blessings from above in everything you do.
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I hope your 2020 is filled with happiness.
Thank you for your lovely message. It warms my heart.
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Youβre most welcome!
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Good to hear about your blood pressure, Drew. Here’s to a happy and healthy New Year!
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I hope your 2020 is filled with happiness.
Thank you for your lovely message.
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Happy new year!
All the best πππ
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I hope your 2020 is filled with happiness.
Thank you for your lovely message.
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Reblogged this on Have We Had Help? and commented:
Something different…
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I hope your 2020 is filled with happiness.
Thank you for your lovely message.
Thanks for sharing this.
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When will you come back,my dear friend!!
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Hello old friend… Like you, I have been suffering with heart problems and too many other incurable conditions. If yiu would, please send me your email address to waltpage10@gmail.com. Thank you sir.
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Hey Walt. Struggling but getting better.
Sorry to hear you are going through your own illnesses.
I hope you get better soon.
May 2020 be a healthy year for you.
Im will pray for you.
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Thank you
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Happy new year, may this year bring you love and joy such that you have never felt before.
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Thank you for your lovely message my dear friend.
Hope 2020 delivers everything you ever dreamed of.
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A very happy new year. May this year brings abundance, happiness and health in your life. Stay blessed
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I hope your 2020 is filled with happiness.
Thank you for your lovely message.
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Thank you so much π
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I am a little late, but Happy New Year to you and your loved ones! I was glad to see your brilliant writing!!!
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Your positive messages are never late my friend.
Thank you so much.
I hope 2020 is good to you.
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The pleasure is all mine! I hope all is going well for you in the sunshine state!
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It is wonderful. So happy I got away from the cold.
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I am so glad you are enjoying it!
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Andrew… Iβm not writing in response to a poem now, Iβm just writing because my worry level of you has gone from βmoderateβ to whatever the next category/level is… βextreme?β If you are ok and you just donβt feel like WP, or messages like this, apologies from me, and please donβt feel you need to respond. But, i have felt this urge to touch base with you for a while now, to check in, to have you know youβre in my thoughts. I have come to think of you as a friend (as well as awesome poet of course) over this past year of blogging… and, well, Iβm fretting, wondering if youβre ok. I know what itβs like to have a life threatening illness…. and itβs often not the things that people would expect that are the most difficult about it. I just wanted to extent a hand and a thought to you Andrew. Donβt worry though, no matter what, no emojis.
Rachel xoxox
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Dear Rachel
Thank you for this beautiful message. I recieved it on a lonely night, where I was feeling alone and forgotten. My heart and soul desperately needed this message.
Wanted to give you a little update. My appointment did not go well. The cardiologist confirmed what my primary doctor told me. I suffered two heart attacks in December and although my blood pressure is currently under control, my heart is getting weaker.
Parts of my heart are not functioning properly, forcing the rest of my heart to work harder. I will have a procedure in April that SHOULD reverse the damage, but there is no guarantee that it will work. He said that 1,000 hearts in my condition will fail to survive this procedure one in a thousand times. Should I decide to not have the procedure he is certain parts of my heart will completey shut down within two to three years.
Thank you for your wonderful support you beautiful caring woman. I have always felt a connection with you and your writing. Don’t know what it is. Maybe’s its the way we are both broken. Your jagged pieces always seem to fit perfectly into mine.
Thank you for your support and friendship.
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This message, has moved me to tears. Thank you, for taking the time to respond, such a testimony to the kind of person you are. I am so sorry that you did not get the news you wanted. That sounds too light for this I know. My thoughts wrap around you in a burrito type hug. I am glad you are having this procedure but I bet it is absolutely terrifying to consider. I see you as so strong Andrew, you have this courage in you, I know you do. I send you love and strength.
Andrew. In response to the rest, I have always felt this connection too, you touch people, but more personally, you have touched me. I have always seen you as a very special person with an incredible beautiful soul. βYour jagged pieces always seem to fit perfectly into mine. Thank you for your support and friendship.β I feel like I could have written that, directed from me to you. You have on several occasions made me feel like my broken was beautiful, and made me feel βseen.β I can only begin to hope you know how much that means.
Take care of yourself honey, and let others take care of you. Thank you a million times over for this message.
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Oh, Rachel. It has been so difficult replying to the overwhelming response of well wishers.
The concern, prayers, and beautiful words let me know I am not alone. It oftens sets me off
on tears and affects my blood pressure. So getting back has been a challenge.
Your delivered your words on a day where I did not post. I was alone in the darkness of my home.
Laying in bed, wondering if I wouild ever get better. Honestly, I was feeling so alone, then
your message popped in just when I needed it. Funny, how life gives us what we need in the precise
moment we need it.
And yes, I have always felt a connection with you and your writing. I admire your talent, writing,
the surivival instinct I suspect you have, and most of all the amazing woman who is my friend.
I would like to correct your on one thing you said, if I may.
You broken is absolutely GORGEOUS.
XOXO
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I am so glad my message was received at a time you needed it. I like to think of the universe connecting us and looking after us in those ways. I am sorry though if responding to my messages ever feels like it adds to your burden – I always feel hesitant knowing the sheer volume of people who adore and interact with you. I donβt want to precipitate tears or affect your blood pressure!! The opposite. Having said that, you have a special place in my heart so I canβt promise I wonβt reach out to you from time to time. Iβll try and keep myself in check.
My broken is gorgeous? Itβs your soul thatβs gorgeous. Iβm so happy youβre taking some rest now at the beach and with plenty of people to look after you. I have my fingers crossed re the particular nurse you were hoping for π. Sending love and hugs to you xoxo
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Hahaha
Thank you for everything. Awaiting your hugs with open arms.
xoxo
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Ahh. Well if I can send hugs with my thoughts, thereβs no waiting required xoxo
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LOL
xoxo
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How are you?my dear friend!! Many days have passed buy you did not come on your blog.hope-you are now more fine than before.bless you ,my dear friend!!
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Hello Aruna. I am struggling with all of the medications the doctors have prescribed. The pills are very strong
and thery have terrible side affects. So, I have been struggling with everything, but I am getting better.
Thank you for your blessings and your loyal friendship. I cherish your loyalty.
Thank you for everything. I hope you and your family are well. xo
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Oh,my dear friend!! Welcome for your reply.after going you,i was most frightened but believe on God.pray for you,only for you.please don’t worry about me.i am fine and waiting for you,only for you.be well,my dear dew!! Take your best care.when you will be fully well and healthy then we both will talk more n more with love.right my dear friend dewβββββxoxoxoxo
God bless you.ππππ
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I can never forget you,my dear promise of dawn’s dewββββwith love xoxoxo
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*buyΓbut..
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You may be surprised at how many masked strangers were going through traumas just like you. I am thrilled your blood pressure is back to “normal”. One step at a time, my friend. Being at the party was a blessing itself.
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That I am still alive is a blessing.
Thank you for your lovely message. It warms my aching heart to know that I am not alone
and people are truly concerned. Thanks for taking the time out to share your words and
thoughts. It means a lot.
Very grateful for your kind message of support.
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You are very kind for sharing this.
TYhank you for your kind gesture of support.
It means a lot.
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Andrew! Iβve missed you so! I hope you are well?!
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Stella, I missed you as well.
More than you think.
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Hi TLAB, haven’t seen you for awhile. I hope all is well.
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May God bless you,my dear friend!!
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Sending good thoughts for your steady recovery.
May 2020 bring you happiness and contentment π
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Thank you for this thoughtful message. It came at a time I needed it. I was feeling very lonely and to hear others were concerned, well, it warmed my aching heart.
Now, I am taking things one day at a time. Hopefully, I will be strong enough for my heart
procedure in April.
Again, I thank you for your kindness. I feel blessed and very grateful.
And apologies for this late response. I finally feel well enough to try to tackle these messages.
Thank you.
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You are most welcome.
Hope your strength is growing day by day.
Take good care.
x
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It is. Thank you.
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Man, I have thought about you a lot and I hope you are doing well. Miss our interactions and I’ll be here when you come back full time, but for now ,nothing but well wishes. Take care.
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Thanks so m uch buddy.
Hope 2020 is being good to you.
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We’ve reached buddy level, that’s huge where I come from. Lol…take care, Drew.
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LOL
Trying to kill me with laughter?
Take care.
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I’ve been thinking of you, Drew, and hope you’re doing better these days. I’ve missed seeing your lovely poems.
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Finally, feeling a little better.
Thank you for your lovely message.
I am touched by your kindness.
I have finally started writing again.
Again, thank you so much.
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Hope you are on the mend and feeling better now.
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Finally, feeling a little better.
Thank you for your lovely message.
I am touched by your kindness.
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So glad to hear ! π
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xoxo
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Andrew! I hope you are well. Iβve missed you and worried about you. Prayers my sweet friend. If I can help you I will.
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Oh, Stella. I always keep you close to my heart and in my prayers.
Bless you for this message. So, happy you haven’t given up on me.
xoxo
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Iβll never give up!:) You my friend. You prayers are appreciated and needed more than you know. β€οΈ
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Bless you my dear friend
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Happy New Year… all the best for 2020
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I hope 2020 is being good to you and yours.
Thank you for your lovely message and wishes.
I truly appreciate it.
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Hey there lonely author… haven’t seen you post in a while and want to check in on you. I pray you are doing well and that whatever you need God will provide. Sending thoughts and prayers your way
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Struggling but getting better. I am taking life one day at a time.
Thank you for your lovely message and concern.
It feels good to know people are concerned.
Thank you.
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Youβre very welcome. Prayers for your continued recovery ππ»
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Hope you’re feeling well! To a healthy 2020!!! β€
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Thank you so much. I truly appreciate your kind message.
I hope 2020 is being good to you so far.
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Just checking in to see how you are. I wonder about you, often.
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That is sweet. I wonder about you all of the time.
This message came on a lonely night when I really needed it.
Bless you Resa. You helped keep my heart ticking on days
I was certain it would give out.
xoxo
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DON’T you dare let it give out! I’ll be very angry with you…. but I will still love you!
Hope you love my new post! (I was the model) xoxoxo
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I am fighting the fight Resa. Getting stronger by the day, Hopefully, I will be
strong enough in April.
Bless you. I wish you could water your plants with my tears.
Very grateful.
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Well, if you want to water my plants with your tears, you’ll have to cry me a river, as tears tend to be salt water.
I’m sure you are capable of a river… I see your poetry as rivers….. rivers of words flowing into the hearts and minds of your many well cared for followers. I say well cared for, because of the time you take to make each feel special, as they are.
So, cry me a river, dear Lonely, my Begonias are thirsty!
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LOL
You are special Resa. One of my favorite muses.
Tears coming right up
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Dear dew!!how are you.according the doctor,how much time in recovering.May God bless you.God is with you.be well.all blessings of universe’s beauties are with you,my dear!!xo
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Thank you so much Aruna.
How are you.
Bless you as well.
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Oh,my dear special friend!! I am fine ,dear!!now you have to tell -how are you ,my dew.you have send this message but i did not know.so much sorry ,dear!! Pray for you to recovering soon.i want to read your sweet verses.bless you,my dewπ·π·π· xo.
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I know you turned off comments on your latest post so I’m being super cheeky (sorry, not sorry) π
The meds soundβ¦ awful with the side-effects. Iβm so sorry youβre having to go through all of this. The other cardiologist opinions sound somewhat reassuring. Whatβs the next step, waiting on the tests Wednesday to see what happens next?
Iβm so glad youβve had Ally come down and your daughter, too. Youβre much loved, Drew, never forget that. The park lake looks gorgeous. Soak it up, let it soothe you. Donβt put any extra pressure on yourself to write, we all want you well. Sending best wishes Β β₯
Caz xxxx
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Caz,
I was just going through your blog and I see the content has changed a bit. There are so good messages there.
But your comments are closed. (Learning from me? LOL). I hope you are well. You are a beautiful woman that
I admire so much, I would hate to think you are unable to blog as you used to.
As for me, the meds are killing me. Don’t know if you have seen my latest posts. I need to have a procedure on
my heart or it may stop functioning in two or three years. Things have been very rough for me.
Sorry, I am so slow responding, but I really wanted to touch base with you.
thelonelyauthorblog.com
Should you need to talk don’t hesitate to write.
Missed you.
Drew
xoxoxoxo
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I have your new post.really i was very happy to see your Allie and hear about your daughter’a caring.you are very lucky my dear.your image of sunset is most inspiring for me.plz take your best care.be well.bless you ,my dear dewββββββxo.
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Yes, I am a lucky man my dear friend.
Lucky to have a friend like you too.
Hope you are well and happy.
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Oh.my dear friend!! So much love your friendship.i feel so much lucky too having a friend like you.wishing you a happy and wonderful life.bless you ,my dear dew!!
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I should be posting poetry soon.
i will visit your blog
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Okay,my dear dew!! I will waiting for you.that will be pleasure of mine.bless you ,my dear!!xo.βββββ
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Happy Valentine’s Day,My Dear Special friend Dewβββββxoxo.
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Good morning,my dear friend!! Have a happy and wonderful day.take you best care.bless you ,my dear dew!!ββββββββββxoxo.
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Really missed you!β€οΈπβοΈβοΈβ€οΈ
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Glad you stopped by to read. Thank you for yourm kind message.
I really appreciate it.
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Cheers to improved health, Drew. I hope the doctors get your medications straightened out.
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I hope so too.
Thank you for your lovely message of support.
It is appreciated and much needed.
Thank you.
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